To work or not to work

Since my wonderful time living in the US and studying about systems of oppression, and inequality, the thought of working a corporate job again has always been terrifying to me. The office politics. The late nights. The exploitation. The numbness of whatever is going on around you. The lack of agency - aka having an opinion. Your opinion doesn’t matter, only profits matter. It’s been years since I left that terrible job at a Silicon Valley tech startup but the pain, the lessons, the disillusionment, everything exposed still aches in my heart. I can’t stand knowing where all of this will lead to (more profits taking to the top, destruction of environments, more tech surveillance, more psychopaths running the world using our labor to hoard wealth and boost inequality) and at the same time I can’t do anything about it. I still have to work to sustain myself. I love what I do, I love creating technological projects but I can’t stand the thought that I couldn’t control the impact of it. I wish so badly that I can just run my own company and decide how this will shape a part of the economy. I wish I have all the funds, the connections, the help, etc. to start a new venture. Honestly I have noticed a lot of people at work don’t like it when you perform better than them. It’s the crabs in a bucket mentality.